EVENTS

Events happen in our lives sometimes so deep that when they become the reminiscence of past they tend to leave a scar on our faces from the inside.

Each one of us is scarred, that we can be sure of.
Even lord krishna was scarred for life when he came to know in his adolescence that his actual mother was a prisoner at some place.
We are made in the image of Gods and thus we are bound to pass through tides, high and low to test us at every stage and only when we are able to accept ourselves to the core that we begin to shine in our natural lustre.
Relations come as our social structure enhances. We tend to make new relations no matter how shallow or deep but each one mattered to us in its own intensity.

We generally remember the deeper ones and that’s where we sometimes fail to see that in those shallower ones lied the key to change the course of our destinies.
Humans are very simple species not complex as is the general norm. We have a heart and thus feelings, we have a mouth and thus words, we have a brain and thus thoughts, I don’t understand where lie does the complexity?
You either like or you don’t, you are either happy or sad, there us no midway! It is our inability to stand for ourselves that we tend to drop the needle in the haystack and then waste time in finding it again. 
It is our weakness to say exactly what we feel about someone or something. Deep down we all know which relations in our social structure are going to remain close with us. We just fail to accept it and thus waste precious moments of our lives.
Life doesn’t actually gives chances to anybody because there is nothing as such like that. It is us who create chances in our desperate attempt to make something real which we already know is not going to happen or is good for us. Thus starts an awful chain  reaction of those events in our lives that seem negative and we begin to crib about negativity affecting all our situations.

DARK SUNSHINE

There are times when sun falls on your skin and you only see the light making you to notice the cells that make your hide but deep down its heat is burning you. 
You do not try to resist the burn, you only enjoy the light warm sensation on your hide and ignore the fire that is just beginning to crawl under your skin.

I find such an attitude unhealthy.

Something that shines in your life from outside is not necessarily lighting your inside too and you better be cautious about it. The darkest of the entities of the Kingdom of our gods are the ones that shine the most.
That feeling that crawls under your skin trying to dig deeper inside of you and reaching the softness of your heart slowly crumbling it within like all your emotions are being exposed at once and leaving you helpless to control all of them is the worst torture you can get from the very sunshine that you think is lighting your world.
Such sun like shines are like trees growing on the fertile ground of your heart. You will nurture them with the fresh lake of feelings of your heart, with the infinite amount of love that is your essential core and the nutrition of your quintessential time that is so precious that it inflates your ego upto a level that you fail to see whether you are spending it right!
That tree will shoot out from a sprout growing elegantly sucking your heart dry of everything making you ambitious and positive about its future but deep down you are beginning to doubt. You have started to grow the weeds of fear that are actually the signs that the tree you are nurturing for so long is making the ground of your heart infertile.
But your ego has boosted and you don’t want to accept what is so clear in sight. Fear grows and you start throwing the weedicides of false hopes and optimism to subjugate the fear and let the tree grow. 
Now the fear is dormant but not dead and now waits for the tree to show you the evil it is. When the time comes that fear will bring the flood of dismay and hopelessness and self pity to wipe that tree out of the ground. The flood will be so huge that everyone will see it as tears down your eyes. Atleast the darkness of your room will be with you, consoling you that even if the sunshine betrayed you I will never leave you. 
You begin to understand that what we thought of as light and shine was actually dark. 
A lesson to Remember but never stop because maybe amongst the false light of darkshines lie the moon of your life waiting for you to come under it’s shade. 
It will be you who has to make an effort to  see the moon and call it to come to you and never go away for you two were always destined to be together as 

“Moonshine”.

Animal Inside

 I am an animal..

No!

But I have animal like instincts, we all have them but with the growth of civilization humans learnt to bury them deep and I guess that’s where we went wrong because we forgot to stay in tune with the nature. Animals stay in tune and so thrive with it. I agree that humans are of course different but we are not above nature. 

Accept it!
I realised this a long time back and brought my instincts up. I never showed them to anyone because I know not everyone can handle or accept me like that. I learned to control them inside me. 

I call myself a traveller but rarely do I go out because I want to do that inside myself and i do and am still learning it.

The animal inside me seeks freedom with every cell. It sometimes roars loudly but I hear a music, a beautiful one.  I want what I want and if I don’t get it, I feel like running away so far that I no longer have the longing left.

I feel love and bliss in my contemplations and  I want that feeling back when I am not an animal.

Love from anyone won’t help. It is like the animal inside me seeks it from specific people or a person and when I don’t get it, furious is the least of all expressions.I can’t force it I know but I can’t even wait for it. I won’t do anything crazy but a cold shoulder from me is not what anybody would want.

I am learning to feel unloved and isolated in the world because I guess that’s what is in my destiny and keeps me on my road. 

This animal is strange and doesn’t ask for revenge because I guess that’s what you call in tune with nature. You let go which is not meant for you. . .

Who You Are To Me

You are not just a day that goes by,

You are a complete book of emotions I write each time the clock strikes 12 twice.
You are not just the one I go for dinners,

You are the moments I store in heart to replay the nights that follow.
The holding hands is not just our fingers entwined,

Holding your hand means playing with the speed of my heart beats.
You are not just somebody I wait to see every day,

You are the coffee my lips need, a scene my eyes savour. A touch my skin wants.
In this lifetime of a turmoil and times of whirlpools,

You are the peace to my breath, that brings the calm in me.
You are the poem my hands write, you are the song that YOUR lips sang last night, the taste of the pasta your hands made, smell of you that I want to wear. You are more than just you.

Having a purpose is important!

Importance of having a purpose in life can be witnessed at the sunrise time.
It is tough to wake up on summer mornings, when its a weekend, and you are wrapped up under the sheets beneath an air conditioner that’s cooling at 20°C. These are the mornings when you end up waking no way before 8/9 am.
Switch to a day when everything remains the same, but you have a trip planned at 4 am. Or an intervew scheduled at a Fortune 500 at 8 am. A purpose to wake up and fight the mind out of its laziness. Its easier to wake, without feeling tired and staying fresh. That’s how important it is to have a purpose constantly, to keep our actions focussed and aligned with our goals.